I’m definitely not one for resolutions, but there is something irresistible about beginning a new year with better intentions. Like a lot of people I am sure, I have a tendency to set rather unachievable goals and then beat myself up when I inevitably fail to reach them (it isn’t just me, is it?). So I have taken a conscious decision to look back on my work in 2014, to smile and remember the highlights – those times when I really enjoyed the creative process.
I have learnt a lot in 2014. I have finally absorbed a piece of information that I knew, but hadn’t take in – that for me, creativity comes out of hard work and experimentation – there’s going to be no sudden inspirational moment (is that just a myth?). I am trying to celebrate the half finished projects that haven’t quite worked out (yet) and remind myself that they are not just waste of time and fabric. So my first Big Thought for 2015 is to keep working hard and to devote myself to the project in hand (rather than worrying about whether I should be doing something else), and just find out where it leads me.
But having adopted that thought, I need to stay on top of what I HAVE to do. So I am giving myself the chance to stay organised and have treated myself to a gorgeous new Daily Planner from The Journal Shop (if you are stationery geek, stay away if you value your savings!) that is a pleasure to use.
This is the first time I have ever felt enthusiasm about a Diary/Planner, and my intention is that keeping on top of my To Do lists will become a positive habit.
My other Big Thought For The New Year is to take more time out to relax and refresh my brain without guilt that I should be loading the dishwasher/tending the garden/sewing some binding instead. But the only way to do this, for me, is to take it on as a challenge. Maybe it’s silly to take on relaxing as part of my day’s work, but I think it is the only way it’s going to happen. It’s all about giving myself permission to commit time to doing the stuff I enjoy. I hope there are people out there who get this rather than thinking I am nuts…!
I have signed up for a reading challenge to read 26 books in 2015:
I am starting with challenge number 13 – a book with a female hero – and reading Jenny Uglow’s biography of Elizabeth Gaskell, who is definitely a hero of mine, as well as being one of my favourite writers. If any of you out there have any suggestions for any of the other 25, I would be very glad to hear about them. I have number 20 all sorted, and I am finally going to get round to reading The Kite Runner… I plan to record my progress on Instagram, if you want to follow me, and maybe devote a bit of blogging time to it too.
Have you had any big thoughts about the coming year?